Tea With Sugar...

That is how I drink tea most of the time (if I ever do drink tea). My preference. Note the word MY.

You might drink black coffee. The only way you would drink your coffee is black. Your preference. Note the word YOUR.

Some others might prefer drinking tea or coffee with milk. The only way they know how to drink their tea or coffee. Their preference. Note the word THEIR.

You see....

Those are the exact words. Which makes US different. Me different from you, you different from others. No one person is the same. We may be alike. But never the same.

I'm frustrated with the comments people make when I say I want to quit my current job. Its my job. I don't like it. I want to leave, if I want to. Your job, you like it, you can stay for all I care.

I don't understand why some people must put force on others to think like them, to do things a certain way they would do it. I am not you. I am me. That is what makes me a different individual from you. Don't you see that?

A friend commented that it isn't wise to leave my job now. We went on to debate on the why and what not, which sent my blood pressure running high. Things which she brought up, things which she mentioned, I have thoroughly thought thru for the longest time I can remember. I know I am not clear of which career path I would like to venture into. I know I can't decide for sure what I want to do in future. But I know for sure, I don't want to be stuck here forever.

Do I really look as though I'm living in the other side of the world? People constantly talk to me as though I'm oblivious to whats happening around me. People constantly treat me like a naive kid, as if I would follow a stranger if he offered me a lolli. Do you not believe I have a brain which functions? One brain that is capable of reviewing the things others could?

I'm tired of discussing my future plans with unnecessary characters in my life. If I need an opinion from you, I would ask for one. Unless I think highly of you, keep your sarcastic comments to yourself. I don't need your sarcasm to survive, I have enough of my own.

You....lead your life....

I'll walk through mine slowly....and surely....and show you how wrong you can be in my life....

Body, Mind and Soul

I don't know what I'm feeling now. My body is tired, my mind is point blank and my soul is overwhelmed.

If only I knew the answers to what, why and how.

I guess some things are better left unsaid...

Yeah. I know. I'm crap-writing again. I told you...its that time of the year...

For the longest time...

I've been away.

I just realised recently, how different people around me have become. Or maybe its just me? Cause I'm the one who is different now, therefore, I see people differently?

Nic has told me before, that the only thing permanent in this world, is change. I couldn't agree more. There are people who might disagree, and say that they haven't changed, or they will not change. But I believe, even having said that, they will still experience a change, even if its just that little bit. They are just in denial of change.

Changes can be positive. It doesn't always have to be a bad thing. Even I have to keep reminding myself that.

You know, I think its that time of the year. June is here, July is coming. Last year I had the issue of moving out with my housemates (and my landlord's agent just called two days ago, how ironic), my planning for a holiday with mom in Japan almost screwed up, and my maternal grandfather passed away.

Maybe that's why I'm crap-writing here about change. Just ignore me if you don't know what I'm crapping. I'm going off to bed...

Chasing Time...

Not enough time...
Wished there was more than 24 hours....
Just came back few hours ago from my Hong Kong holiday...
Now I'm going off to work...
*sigh*

Good times just don't last as long...

Note to YOU: Be good okay...I'll be back soon...

Problematic Blogging

Something has been wrong with blogspot and all Singnet users I think. I was blogging from 5th July 07 in the last post and didn't realize till YeeMai pointed it out. Then I wanted to edit it, but couldn't access cause all the pages keep coming out weird. Then I went and check out the blogger group thingy and read that lots of people are having the same problem. So just follow their instructions and I'm back on track...*yay*

I'm taking a break from doing some stupid online test quiz. Super dizzy-drowsy-sleepy feeling right now. Must be all the drugs working up again...

The bed looks inviting. But I've been sleeping too much lately.

I t h i n k m a y b e....

I s h o u l d g o...

l i e d o w n f o r a w h i l e...

s t a r t i n g t o s e e s t a r s a n d...

I'm g e t t i n g c r o s s e d e y e d...

L a t e r...

T a ~

Freefall...

I think I need one now.

Sis, I think you are bad influence la. Now I feel as though I'm gonna crash into the whole world or whoever that comes along my way. Bad feeling and I can't get it out....*sigh*

Sorry if I gave YOU a hard time because of that. I seriously don't know what's gotten into me.

I need to cheer up. But the hot weather is not helping either.

Maybe I should go sleep it off....like always...

Note to self: 10 days away is just cruel. 3 more days to go...Hang in there...*sigh*

About YOU...

In January 2006, I wrote about YOU. I thought either one of us were lost, which is why we couldn't find each other. When it was already half a year gone, and YOU still didn't show up, I was already almost giving up...

Then a friend of mine had to spell out the word R-E-M-A-R-K-A-B-L-E to my still single status. Which only contributed to my already dying hope of finding YOU. I think I stopped looking after that. Which was probably a good thing, cause then, YOU came along...

I don't know what took YOU so long.

But I'm just glad I found YOU.

I've been seeing YOU for almost half a year I think. Getting together was almost just a natural transition. Now that we are together, its almost unbearable when I have to leave the country for work.

Before YOU came along, I've already wanted to apply for PR and look for a new job. Your presence only made my decisions easier. Whatever comes next, whether or not a new found job for me would be easier on us, we'll work it out.

Thank YOU, Nic....

for bringing me new found happiness....*smiles*