Jet-Lagging...

Two days is not sufficient for a normal being to recover from jet lag.

I'm just back from Frankfurt and New York. My body has been working like totally opposite since Friday. I started to feel hungry during the late night which is the approximate timing I have my breakfast overseas. Sucks to the max....

I'm so tired on Friday, I slept almost instantly. But I had probably too long a rest during the day time, and Saturday saw me staring into the dark until almost 4am in the morning. Now I've gotta just gather all my tiredness and put myself to bed cause I'm expected to wake up at 3.40am for work. You would think its gonna be alright, since I get to sleep later in the day when I supposedly come back from work. But no. I think that would only further screw up my sleeping pattern cause I'm due for morning shift again on Tuesday.

Sigh~ Life is tough...*shakes head*

Attachment

It seems to be getting more and more difficult to be away these days.

I recently overheard a conversation of my colleague (I wasn't eavesdropping, she was speaking really loud). Her boyfriend is based overseas and she stays in Singapore. The nature of our job enables her to visit her boyfriend regularly if not often. They've maintained a relationship as such for about 8 years. She used to be really sad when leaving him everytime. But these days, she says she's alright with it. It almost feels like nothing. Just another routine.

I beg to differ.

I've grown so attached to Nic, especially recently. It feels so sad when I leave for another country. The only motivation I have is telling myself when I'll be back and when I get to see him next. I guess most people will either say I'm too sticky as a girlfriend or tell me this is just a honeymoon period in the relationship. But I know for sure it isn't.

This attachment is a form of growth in our relationship. I don't know how you can measure growth, but it feels just about right to describe it in these words. Its a wonderful feeling though. Nobody makes me happy the way he does...*smiles*

I'll be back in a week...be good...

Tiredness...

I've been tired...

Family issues have been numbing me. Its like a never ending ferris wheel. Up and down, round and round. Sigh...

But I think living out in Singapore away from my family draws my attention away sometimes. Cause visually I don't see it. So I'm kinda like in hiding. It makes me feel guilty sometimes. Like I'm being happy here cause I've got Nic to accompany me. But I know everyone in my family is tired with their own problems, tired with trying to understand each other, tired trying to be patient.

Being tired can be lethal isn't it? It'll make you lose concentration, test your patience, play with your emotions, and just basically drain your every ounce of energy.

Tell me...have you been tired lately?

Tuna VS Tuna

Last weekend, I wanted to satisfy my craving for tuna steak so Nic and me decided to cook some for ourselves. We bought two tuna steaks but couldn't decide on how to cook it, so we decided on a cook off instead...

The outcome was surprisingly delicious. Nic made the steak with garlic, cheese and added some peach vodka. It was 'absolutly' interesting. I decided to make mine a black pepper steak (some recipe I saw from TV). A little over spiced, but I thought it was pretty nice for my first attempt. Hehe~

I think its a real good idea that we had this 'cooking competition'. We get to share our food at the end. And we had super fun trying to outdo each other. I actually poured away Nic's special sauce for the steak and he thought I did it on purpose cause I was overly competitive! Hahaha~ Sorry baby, it was an accident, really! *looks innocent*

I wonder what's on the menu for our next cook off?

Capetown

View from my room

Capetown is a super scenic place. The skies are exceptionally blue with really white clouds. The weather has been great, with cool winds and plenty of sunshine (although it is a little more chilly than what I expected). I've never been excited to sight see for a very long time.

The highlight for today was whale watching cause the whales from the Artic Ocean has migrated to the shores of Capetown since September and will stay on till the month of November. I went with some colleagues and we were in luck...

Part of the crowd that was there for some whale sightings...

The whales were playful and we could see them flipping in the sea. There were several times which they jumped up from the water. But I was busy posing for the camera and only managed to catch the big splash after...

Sunset

We had a long scenic drive around the costal area back to the hotel. I never knew South Africa would be this pretty...really...It makes my slaving through work all worthwhile again...

Sloth On The Couch...

I'm home alone today for the first time after almost 3 weeks. It feels weird. Not having someone to say anything to or hang out with. It feels weird.

I spent the whole afternoon looking through some old photos. Those from college, from my graduation, from when I first moved to Singapore, from my holiday trips and hang outs with my friends. I miss everyone. There's been so many people I haven't seen since ages.

Sometimes I wonder about what my friends are doing. But I'm just so tired from work, I prefer to stay in when I get home to KL sometimes. I know...thats a real selfish thought. And I've probably been on this subject for one too many times. Sigh~

I guess I'll have to work out something if I really wanna spend more time catching up with people I've lost touch with....

Post Holiday Blues...

Arriving in Phuket...

I went for another holiday in Thailand recently. This time to Phuket with Nic and a group of friends. Overall, the trip was unexpected enjoyable. I had an unexpected outburst. We made some unexpected friends as well. But I've had enough of Pad Thais and Tom Yum Gongs for this year.

We almost didn't make it for the trip. There were demonstrations going on in various parts of Thailand and some of the airports were closed. Phuket airport opened just in time for our departure. But we were concerned about our safety and hesitated for quite abit before we actually decided to go on with the trip. I'm glad we did in the end...

I spent the rest of my leave in KL. It was nice being able to stay home for such a long time instead of just my normal two or three days visit. But it obviously made leaving much more difficult...all over again. Especially since Nic stayed on and sent me off when I boarded the bus back to Singapore. *sob sob sob*

Wish someone would pay me to holiday and travel around the world...

*pause*

Wait...aren't I already doing that?