Happy Mother's Day...Not...

The thing about my family is...

We always appear so united on the outside. We look like a happy bunch, with the perfect parents and perfect kids and perfect sibling relationship going on...

The truth about my family is...

We always have quarrels and are constantly shouting at one another. We always have pissed off moments with one another and cold wars and emo moments...

At current...

I'm suffering emotional and its really depressing. Cause I've moved out of home for coming four years and only come home once a month, these vibes suddenly, collectively fall on me everytime I come home. Its a super overwhelming feeling, not in a good way.

You know how you've been away from home, you miss the good times, you miss your family, you miss everything. But when you get back to this place you so wanna be in and it suddenly doesn't fit your picture, its like a panic moment. How do you get all of it back in one piece? How?

I try and ease the lines out between everyone. Its not easy, cause I'm there, listening to each and everyone's frustration and I've gotta remain cool and calm. Then you go from one person to another until you think you've got it ironed out. But it only takes one...just one tiny, minor missed out line to put your whole family back into that situation you so carefully and painstakingly pulled them out from. It sucks...big time...

Sometimes I feel like venting out too...But I know it'll only make things worse...

*breathe gal...breathe...*

I want to...

blog...

But I suddenly feel empty.
Like I've lost all the words I want to speak.
I can't remember what I wanted to say.
That's probably what happens when YOU've been away for too long...

I need to find YOU.
Find me.
Come back quick...
Please...