The Last of 2-0-0-7

Another new year coming...
Another day away working...

2007 has been great.
The highlight of the year has been all about YOU.
Plenty of other changes, but all for the better, I hope.
Wish I could add a few more words before I go for work.
I guess I'll just have to wait for the new year to come....

Have a good 2008 everyone~

High End Shopping

I can't understand how people can indulge in high end shopping (or 'atas' shopping as some Malaysians and Singaporeans would term it).

Since I was in Pa-ree and Serena asked me to check out a Gucci handbag for her, I thought I'd better follow my colleagues out, cause I obviously don't really know the way. We went to this freaking huge LV store to look around first. I think we spent more than an hour there. These girls can look at the bags for hours and still can't decide whether to buy them or not. Damn regret following them there.

I can understand why one would take a long time to decide, cause the bags ARE expensive. No matter how cheap you deem them to be, its STILL expensive. Its a fact that would never change.

I saw some, one or two designs that was pretty. But one bag cost about 400 over and the other was 600 over. The currency, in Euros, obviously. RM1600 plus and more for a handbag that would be so precious, I wouldn't want to use it too much, in case I damage it, would not be very worth the money is it? I can freaking buy at least 30 bags and more from Bugis Street or slightly over 10 pieces of bags from Esprit (the more 'atas' shopping for me). I guess that is why I would never be an 'atas' person.

But it would be so silly to judge a person's status based on the bags they carry, no? They might carry an LV bag, but have not much in it. So what if I carried a no brand bag? I think I have so much more, its not necessary to show off.

I hate high end shopping.

Christmas In Pa-Ree~

Merry Christmas from Pa-ree...

Had crappy time working my way through Christmas. Cough and flu still bugging me. My eyes are so puffy now, I've got triple eye lids. My hotel room is cold and dry, the heater trying its best to keep me warm from the winter outside. I feel like I'm breathing in charcoal.

Wish I had some Christmas movies or cartoons or shows I could watch. Everything here is in French.

Miss YOU.

Losing time...

I can hardly sleep...

Haven't been sleeping well the past few weeks. Sleep late, wake up early, wake up in between, bad dreams.

Sister came and went. Nelsen bringing Elaine for holiday soon. I'm going to be missing in action after. Nic preparing to go back KL end December. My life is so fast moving now, I need a break.

I need to re-organize, get things done, prepare to start fresh for the new coming year.

I'm gonna leave for work now. Hopefully by the time I'm back, I have a proper plan worked out on how to organize everything.

Have fun while I'm gone~

On Things That Has Been Happening...

I've pretty much neglected this blog since having more to do in life. Work has been non-stop and my time off just won't compensate for the tiredness and jet lag problems post work. I think I'll write a little more tonight, just to make up.

On work...

Work sucks these past few days. Like I've lost it or something. I hope its just a temporary thingy. But my heart is definitely not in this job. Now is just a earning-money-phase.

On family...

I try and stay home when I'm back in KL nowadays. My poor mommy is always left home alone while my dad goes out with his 'gay partner', Mr. Beh. On the other hand, my sister and brother goes out or too preoccupied with assignments to even know what is happening at home.

On love...

Ahh~ My favourite topic for now. All has been great with Nic. He has taught me so much and life is very interesting from his point of view. I think I know more about breaking news in sports rather than whats happening in the world now. I learned the existance of people like Paul Haggis and Inarritu. I'm embracing my girlie side and so loving it. He loves me, I love him. He is cute, I am cute, we are cute. This relationship is almost coming to a year old. I can't wait for our Bali trip. *smiles*

On friends...

I'm so guilty for not keeping in contact with friends. Cause I haven't had much time back in KL, I never actually tell people that I'm back. I'm just glad I have forgiving and understanding friends. Right? Right? *looks hopeful*

On housemates...

Haven't exactly spend much time at home or seen my housemates around much to begin with. Just know that my anticipation for the electric bills continues. And coming back to a less than clean house I left behind sorts of put me off mood. Oh well, living out is just like that. Nothing new really.

On life...

Pretty average. Everything seems okay for now.

On future...

So promising yet confusing. I want to quit and look for another job in Singapore. I want to quit and look for another job in Malaysia. I want to be a part of something I have no experience in. I want to dabble in business. But I don't know what exactly I should do. I guess only time will tell.

That's pretty much what has been happening for me.

Time Apart...

You know, that thing about giving your other half 'some space' and maintaining 'time apart' thingy in a relationship? Its so different for every couple, every individual and every phase in life.

When I was unattached, I always thought the 'me time' in a relationship is important. Maybe cause I was so used to being alone and doing everything by myself.

But now, being apart from YOU is like a punishment. Its like some kind of cruel thing someone is making me do. I think I've had too much time apart. 25 years to be exact. I don't really want that anymore.

But life is life. It is just cruel in some ways. I hate my job. And I forsee I'm gonna hate YOUR job next time. Sigh~

I miss YOU.

My Precious

Been away for a week, few days off, away for another week, few days off, going away for another week, with another few days off. I hate working.

Days off are so precious.

Thank YOU for taking day off yesterday. We had a mood swinging day at the start, but it ended all well. Dinner at Tony Roma's was great. Loved that Strawberry Romarita. We really should've claimed our free drink YOU know? Loved the strappy sandals YOU choosed. Lucky I insisted on skipping that shoe shop.

YOU know, these are the times spent that makes my days off so precious.

*Happy sigh*

Wished there were more off days than working days...

Adult Phase

You know...

I used to wish that Peter Pan would pick me instead of Wendy to bring to that Neverland. That one place that adults are not allowed and children never have to grow up. A place where I could play child games forever, laugh or cry as much as I want and no one will think I'm crazy.

But...

On the contrary, some kids can't wait to grow up and become adults. When they're 12, they act like they're 21, and by the time they are 21, they act like they are in their late twenties (yes, please accept the fact that irregardless how much kids wanna be old, they won't wanna be older than 29). But act is totally different from being one.

Now...

I'm mid-twenties. Life hasn't exactly been smooth sailing. But I'm healthy, have a roof over my head, can wear nice clothes, I'm employed, it'll be cruel to complain. Its just that responsibilities come with adulthood. Not that attractive a package for me, especially the ones that involves money and better living conditions.

I guess...

There is always two sides to a coin. If I never grew up, I would never know the importance of family, sibling relationship, love, friendship, which are exactly the things which keeps me happy. Although tired of growing up, I'm sure there is more to gain than lose in the process.

Note: For now, I'm looking forward to growing up with YOU. Good luck! *wink*

I.M.S.H.O.C.K.E.D.

The bill finally came for last month's consumption of water, electricity and garbage disposal.

*EYES OPEN BIG BIG* *JAW DROP TO THE GROUND*

$316.53

Electricity itself was $220.52!

Never in the 3 years that I've been living in Singapore have I received such an amount of bill for electricity. Even when there were three of us (Me, Erin and Mandy) living together. This amount has to be the most ridiculous one I've seen to date.

Thanks to my new housemate.

I knew nothing good was going to come out from his purchase of a portable dryer. Plus his love of washing clothes even if it was like 3 pieces he put in the machine.

*TRIES TO KEEP EYES FROM POPPING OUT AND JAW INTACT*

I am shocked!

A Story About Siti...

Sis was sitting in the kitchen at the counter.

Her friend Wei Yen, also known as Chicken Little, also known as Siti, was washing dishes at the sink overlooking our neighbour's kitchen.

Sis: Siti, you sudah pandai ah. Boleh cuci pinggan tak ada pecah. Tapi you lambat la. Cepatlah.

Wei Yen: *No response*

Sis: Siti cepatlah Siti! Banyak lagi kerja nak buat tau.

Wei Yen: Diamlah!

Mom: Sshh! Not so loud la! The neighbour's maid is just opposite k!

Apparently, the neighbour's maid's name IS Siti.

*laughs until dies*

Early To Bed, Early To Rise

I didn't exactly sleep early. But I managed to sleep about 3 and a half hours?

Haven't had such rested sleep for a long long while...

And it had to pour heavily when I woke up. Make it even more difficult to get out of bed. Its a surprise I did and I still have some time to spare before going off for work today.

I'm super bright and chirpy today. I am sure YOU are glad I'm slowly coming out of the depressing condition. Can't wait for the weekend to be here. Its gonna be a new month soon.

I'll write something when I get back...

Ta~

The Problem About Being Happy...

is that when you are really unhappy or just merely in a lousy mood to talk, people just assume you to be the most ungrateful human on earth. They just can't stand the sight of your non-smiling-face. Everytime you open your mouth to try and excuse your lousy mood, they just scrutinise you from top to bottom.

I think that is totally unfair.

I don't judge you when you have mood swings. I don't tell you off for having a sour face. I don't bother you when I know you are detached from the world. I just leave you alone.

I want to be treated the same.

Its just one of those days...you know?
Those...let me be days...
Those...leave me alone days...
Those...I miss home days...
Those...I wanna cry days...
Those...I wanna be invincible days...
Those...let me be trouble free days...
Those...pick me up and give me a hug days...

There. Exactly seven of those days, which makes a week. I'm not even at a week yet. Only two days and you are frowning upon me. Heck. When you don't feel like talking or smiling, I even make up excuses for your behalf okay. Like maybe you are having love problems, maybe your dog is sick, maybe you are having your PMS, maybe...just maybe.

All I want now is just for you to leave me alone. All I wanna do now is to go and look for YOU instead. You makes me sulk, but only YOU can make me feel better.

U don't understand?

It's okay. Cause its my secret between me, you and YOU. So, U should go sleep now...

I've recently lost the interest to blog.

F-U-L-L-S-T-O-P.

Nosy Weird People

I am sitting here in the living room with my laptop. I am overlooking a petrol station under construction, a very quiet road and block 193 HDB flat out of the window on my right. On my left is a living room with unpacked baggage belonging to me, Mandy and Bernard.

I was happily enjoying the afternoon breeze and checking my e-mails like ten minutes ago. Then some nosy weird people walked along our corridor and started looking in at our apartment. I know how you sometimes look into people's place and you can't help it, because it's just something you can't control when you are not thinking. We use to get that all the time in Pasir Ris, cause our unit was the first one after the lift. Every single neighbour would have to pass our corridor before they reached home. Super annoying. But this is Punggol. And our unit is like at the end of the lot.

I'd understand if our neighbour (who is directly opposite of our unit) would do exactly that. But these bunch of nosy weird people were probably not even living in this block. They totally, intentionally looked into our apartment. One of the guys even tried to asked me questions. He looked in, which obviously had my attention already, and he went, "Is this a 4 room unit?"

What the ??

I tell you, I'm beginning to hate these people a whole lot. Super rude. And not to mention nosy. And no interpersonal skills whatsoever. They make me dislike them and start behaving like them just to match their super annoying behaviour. No wonder people keep saying I'm beginning to blend in.

I. Don't. Want. To. Be. One. Of. Them.

I better stop being irritated so easily. I think I need to start meditating. *breath in* breath out*

It's A Sign

I know it is...

I have a strong feeling I'm gonna get a new job by end of the year. I know it.

Just when I'm all down and worried about not being called up for any interviews, after six applications, I met a colleague, Mel who is quitting soon. She is so motivated to leave and start a new life even though she's in her thirties. She's sent out over 20 resumes before she got her first interview.

I must NOT give up.

Mel is working with Headhunters. The irony is, Serena was just talking about Headhunters two weeks ago. She found a job through them and recommended that I leave my profile with them. It's a sign...

I have to build my resume and make sure I make good use of this opportunity. These kind of things happen for a reason. I haven't seen Mel for over a year. And of all times to meet up again, is when she is quitting. Once she's settled in her new job, she's gonna look out for me...

*cross my fingers*

Pray for me okay?

One Week...

I've officially moved to Punggol and have been staying in my new home for a week.

Was super tiring. Cause you've just packed everything into boxes one minute, and the next, you're unpacking and trying to put things into order. Surprisingly, me and Mandy managed to unpack within a day and a half.

But I've still got two boxes sitting idle, waiting for me to prosecute them. Either pack them properly so they'll never see daylight again, or throw them away and let them disintegrate with other rubbish.

We've also managed to find a new housemate. HE is a SHE colleague. So far, so good. I'm sure to update if anything goes wrong.

Apart from having to travel a little further for work, I quite like this place actually. Comfortable and clean. Finally a happy kind of place to call home. Big difference from the previous one.

Totally Happy~

*Someone* forgot to call me this morning...*angry face*

But I'm in a totally happy-good-mood. Don't know why. *Hehehe*

I'm super tired from moving stuff yesterday, had barely rested enough, and continued a sort of second round this morning. Brought super heavy luggage all across the main road and waited more than half hour under the super hot sun and still ended up calling for a cab. But I'm still in a totally happy-good-mood. *Hehehe*

Damn. Something must be super wrong with me....

Anyway, moving out is no joke man. Its seriously so not funny, I'm not even laughing. I just packed everything into boxes from old home, now I've got to start unpacking my stuff from the boxes in my new home. So horrible. Talk about transporting items...

And, when I packed my stuff INTO the box. I asked myself if I still need it, do I still use it, am I gonna keep it. I decide to put it in the box, only to find myself asking why did I even buy it or have it in the first place when I unpacked FROM the box. So silly right? Filtering through your own stuff twice also can be super brain tiring.

For the first time in 3 years, I'm blogging from the comfort of my bed. You know why the special occassion? Make a guess...

*Hehe*

Cause my furniture have all gone to a new place! *Hahahahahha* (I can picture my adorable sister's face when she reads this. The I-so-wanna-smack-you-in-the-face-for-being-lame face) *Hahahahaha*

Something is really super wrong with me.

Oh well. Its been a pretty boring and slow moving day. After the short trip to Punggol this morning, I've been on the internet the whole entire day, stalking other people's blogs. No choice. My super huge TV is gone. Mandy is attending classes in Orchard and her mom is shopping. Nic is working super late tonight. So, the only entertainment I have now is my laptop and myself.

I can predict more boring days coming. Its back to work for me on Wednesday and I'll be stuck in Abu Dhabi with 3 whole freaking off days to myself. Question: What am I gonna do there? What can I do there? Answer: Shit. Like literally. *sigh*

I better stop contributing to nonsence. I have many more days to do that.

I might take a nap now...(yes, I know its 9.30PM)

Goodnite~

Super Friends

I am dead tired. Eyes are shutting and body feels like zombie.

I moved most of my stuff today to my new place in Punggol. I'm seriously blessed to have friends who are super helpful, and friends who have other super helpful friends. Lebe brought her TVman boyfriend, who brought his super good friend to help me with the big move. My super boyfriend was late, but all for a valid reason, and is forgiven because he still turned up although it was super rushy for him.

*Sigh*

How to thank these kind of friends? Bring them out for dinner also I still feel I owe them big time...

Wish my super family was here too. Especially my super sister. I'm sure she would've have provided super entertainment for everyone. *Hehehe*

I'm going to bed now. Have to continue with the move tomorrow. I'm gonna have a super good day tomorrow. But for now, I'll just go and try get some super sweet dreams...

Nite nite...

Greetings from Switzerland

The land where Swatch is made and Victornox should be cheaper. (Just a reminder that my geography was never great, if I got any of those info wrong)

I'm sitting here, with a great big window right in front of me. Super nice sunlight, super green trees, super cool breeze, birdies chirpring away together with someone's laptop music playing in the background. Sounds comfy, but this room is a little dodgy.

TV shows here are boring. All in German and French. Those in English are all news channels. Me and news are like water and fire. Cannot go together. Already seen the sights here. I am that bored now.

I've been sitting in the same spot for about two hours. I better get moving. Conserve some energy for my big move when I get back on Sunday morning.

Back to work...

Preparing to go off for work again. Will be away 5 days this time. When I get back, it'll be moving day! New place, new beginning...

I want a new job! I'm gonna be sending out more resumes after this. I don't care about pay cut anymore. Wish me luck...

Busy busy busy~

Money Not Enough?

I was just thinking about how different I was when I first started working in comparison to now. So much difference. From a miser me to a willing to spend a little bit more on everything now person.

I think I need to re-evaluate myself and my spending habits. I don't have to be a miser, but I also don't need to splurge as much. Furthermore, I need to prepare myself for a possible future pay cut. *Sigh* Think frugal lifestyle. Ok. Maybe not as bad. Think moderation lifestyle.

I can't believe I survived on minimal allowance last time and still manage to go out for movies, mamak and karaoke sessions. I think all my financial planning brain cells died on me when I started getting too comfortable with my income. I need to go back to my roots....

Please hit me if I still stick with a more expensive Starhub plan and refuse to get done my re-contract for broadband with Singnet by next month. That will probably save me more than $50 a month.

Hopefully that will guide me back to the right path. I'm going to think about other possible ways of saving money. Goodnite...

Have You...

...sorted out your dirty laundry?

...paid your bills yet?

...replied your e-mails or sms-es?

...found that someone to lean on?

...been missing me?

...told anyone what you've been thinking about lately?

...thrown your junk and heavy baggage out like you were supposed to?

...ever questioned why you were brought into this world?

...wondered what is your next step in life?

...stopped to smell the roses lately?

Think about it.

Moving Out...

Over the weekend, me and Mandy managed to find a new place to stay. We're now officially moving to Punggol by first week of August. Phew~

The place is slightly more expensive than what our landlord demanded from us. But we are so over with him, we would rather pay a little more and move out of this shit hole.

The new place looks much nicer than here anyway. Loads of privacy, no prying and talking-on-top-of-their-voices-neighbours, clean and tidy, and the washing machine is in a totally separate area from the toilet! Yay~

We've put up with 3 years of inconvenience with the washing problem cause the machine's water outlet goes into the common toilet. So everytime when somebody is washing clothes, I can't shower, pee or crap. No more of that. Yay~

Anyway, we need to get another housemate fast, otherwise we'll be eating grass for the next few months.

I can't believe there is so much to pack. Terribly lots of junk. Oh well, moving out is like a spring cleaning. Can't wait to get the keys to our new pad.

I'll be busy packing....

Ta~

PS: Thanx for YOUR help too. Me love YOU lots!

Hand me those boxes...

I'm moving out.

To where? I don't know yet. But we've officially 'fan min' with my landlord and his agent. So now we're looking for a place to move. I haven't been so angry with somebody for a long time. I know YOU say its a waste of energy to be mad. But couldn't help it. It was all those frustration and anger like you were being stepped all over and taken advantage of. I don't hate these people. I just hate their guts and for being so heartless. I believe in instant karma, remember?

Anyway, now me and Mandy are seriously looking in papers and websites to hopefully find a better or at least a decent place to live in. The property market in Singapore is crazy now, we know. Chances are slim, we know. We might incur a little loss by moving out, we know. But we are hopeful. Imhopeful at least...

Hand me those boxes...

Anyone wanna help?

A Week's Events

My birthday came and went just like that. I am now officially 25. I can now introduce myself as mid-twenties, definitely not something I look forward to....

I had a great week. The best so far, in a long long time. Sis came over to visit, I had surprises for my birthday and spent good time with Nic and sis. I love you both! Thanx for the super great time.

The great week had to pass though. Just as I was due for work, sis was due to go home, my landlord's agent, Simon, called. Stupid landlord said he wanted to raise my rent by 400 now. Damn irritated ok. Initially he said the raise was another 200 only. Now its freaking 400! I either move out, try and counter offer, or move out, pay whatever they ask for, or move out. Oh, did I say I might have to move out already? Stupid asses.

So freaking unfair. We already agreed to stay on for 1200 and if he fixed the air-cons for us. New air-cons also not installed yet, and he says he wanna raise the rent again. No fair. I was in touch with my landlord for the whole week, discussing about the appointment date for the contractors to come, and he didn't mentioned anything about another 200. Must be the stupid agent went and poison him. Must be the stupid agent's doing. Suggest to my landlord to raise somemore since he fixing new air-con. *ish*

I hate property agents. Oh wait, my favourite uncle is one and mom used to work as one. *pause* But I'm definitely not talking about them. I think I have to be more specific. I hate property agents from Singapore. They speak as though they are doing you a very big favour, helping you get your best interest. Asses! Think I'm some kinda small girl, don't know what verbal agreement is issit? Hello? I like just turned mid-twenties okay! Furthermore, he is my landlord's agent, obviously somebody who isn't very bright also can guess who he's gonna side la. All the same. Last year also another agent almost caused me high blood. This year also unavoidable. Damn idiots. *sigh*

I need to go sleep. Don't wanna think about damn agents.

Goodnite.

When I come back...

My landlord is gonna put up new aircons in all 3 rooms! Whee~

He is gonna raise the rent, so we demanded that he did something to the vacant room, so it'll be easier for us to rent it out. Otherwise me and Mandy have gotta move out. The new rent would be too much for us to bear.

I can't wait for those new aircons. Hahaha... Its been a whole year since I switched mine on. I don't think I can remember how it feels like to have cool air in this room anymore. Yay~

Will be gone for the week. *sigh*

Forever gone one la....what's new right?

Oh well. Will come home soon. Real soon. Sooner than YOU know it.

Ta~

Unwell

Suddenly don't feel quite well.

Sniffing, puffy eyed, blocked nose, feeling cold and I think I might have a slight fever.

Hope I can survive work tonight...

Good Sleep

I must have woke up at the right side of the bed today.

Yesterday is over. Not bothered anymore.

Today YOU are coming back. Yay~

Wish I didn't have to work till late night though....

Oh well...

Ta~

Assumptions...

Can really kill a person.

We need to trust each other more. We need to believe in ourselves more. We need to give benefit of the doubts.

Are you with me in this?

Tea With Sugar...

That is how I drink tea most of the time (if I ever do drink tea). My preference. Note the word MY.

You might drink black coffee. The only way you would drink your coffee is black. Your preference. Note the word YOUR.

Some others might prefer drinking tea or coffee with milk. The only way they know how to drink their tea or coffee. Their preference. Note the word THEIR.

You see....

Those are the exact words. Which makes US different. Me different from you, you different from others. No one person is the same. We may be alike. But never the same.

I'm frustrated with the comments people make when I say I want to quit my current job. Its my job. I don't like it. I want to leave, if I want to. Your job, you like it, you can stay for all I care.

I don't understand why some people must put force on others to think like them, to do things a certain way they would do it. I am not you. I am me. That is what makes me a different individual from you. Don't you see that?

A friend commented that it isn't wise to leave my job now. We went on to debate on the why and what not, which sent my blood pressure running high. Things which she brought up, things which she mentioned, I have thoroughly thought thru for the longest time I can remember. I know I am not clear of which career path I would like to venture into. I know I can't decide for sure what I want to do in future. But I know for sure, I don't want to be stuck here forever.

Do I really look as though I'm living in the other side of the world? People constantly talk to me as though I'm oblivious to whats happening around me. People constantly treat me like a naive kid, as if I would follow a stranger if he offered me a lolli. Do you not believe I have a brain which functions? One brain that is capable of reviewing the things others could?

I'm tired of discussing my future plans with unnecessary characters in my life. If I need an opinion from you, I would ask for one. Unless I think highly of you, keep your sarcastic comments to yourself. I don't need your sarcasm to survive, I have enough of my own.

You....lead your life....

I'll walk through mine slowly....and surely....and show you how wrong you can be in my life....

Body, Mind and Soul

I don't know what I'm feeling now. My body is tired, my mind is point blank and my soul is overwhelmed.

If only I knew the answers to what, why and how.

I guess some things are better left unsaid...

Yeah. I know. I'm crap-writing again. I told you...its that time of the year...

For the longest time...

I've been away.

I just realised recently, how different people around me have become. Or maybe its just me? Cause I'm the one who is different now, therefore, I see people differently?

Nic has told me before, that the only thing permanent in this world, is change. I couldn't agree more. There are people who might disagree, and say that they haven't changed, or they will not change. But I believe, even having said that, they will still experience a change, even if its just that little bit. They are just in denial of change.

Changes can be positive. It doesn't always have to be a bad thing. Even I have to keep reminding myself that.

You know, I think its that time of the year. June is here, July is coming. Last year I had the issue of moving out with my housemates (and my landlord's agent just called two days ago, how ironic), my planning for a holiday with mom in Japan almost screwed up, and my maternal grandfather passed away.

Maybe that's why I'm crap-writing here about change. Just ignore me if you don't know what I'm crapping. I'm going off to bed...

Chasing Time...

Not enough time...
Wished there was more than 24 hours....
Just came back few hours ago from my Hong Kong holiday...
Now I'm going off to work...
*sigh*

Good times just don't last as long...

Note to YOU: Be good okay...I'll be back soon...

Problematic Blogging

Something has been wrong with blogspot and all Singnet users I think. I was blogging from 5th July 07 in the last post and didn't realize till YeeMai pointed it out. Then I wanted to edit it, but couldn't access cause all the pages keep coming out weird. Then I went and check out the blogger group thingy and read that lots of people are having the same problem. So just follow their instructions and I'm back on track...*yay*

I'm taking a break from doing some stupid online test quiz. Super dizzy-drowsy-sleepy feeling right now. Must be all the drugs working up again...

The bed looks inviting. But I've been sleeping too much lately.

I t h i n k m a y b e....

I s h o u l d g o...

l i e d o w n f o r a w h i l e...

s t a r t i n g t o s e e s t a r s a n d...

I'm g e t t i n g c r o s s e d e y e d...

L a t e r...

T a ~

Freefall...

I think I need one now.

Sis, I think you are bad influence la. Now I feel as though I'm gonna crash into the whole world or whoever that comes along my way. Bad feeling and I can't get it out....*sigh*

Sorry if I gave YOU a hard time because of that. I seriously don't know what's gotten into me.

I need to cheer up. But the hot weather is not helping either.

Maybe I should go sleep it off....like always...

Note to self: 10 days away is just cruel. 3 more days to go...Hang in there...*sigh*

About YOU...

In January 2006, I wrote about YOU. I thought either one of us were lost, which is why we couldn't find each other. When it was already half a year gone, and YOU still didn't show up, I was already almost giving up...

Then a friend of mine had to spell out the word R-E-M-A-R-K-A-B-L-E to my still single status. Which only contributed to my already dying hope of finding YOU. I think I stopped looking after that. Which was probably a good thing, cause then, YOU came along...

I don't know what took YOU so long.

But I'm just glad I found YOU.

I've been seeing YOU for almost half a year I think. Getting together was almost just a natural transition. Now that we are together, its almost unbearable when I have to leave the country for work.

Before YOU came along, I've already wanted to apply for PR and look for a new job. Your presence only made my decisions easier. Whatever comes next, whether or not a new found job for me would be easier on us, we'll work it out.

Thank YOU, Nic....

for bringing me new found happiness....*smiles*

Sawadee-Kaa~

Whee~

Just came back from Bangkok....

The trip was alright. I checked in at the wrong terminal, almost died in the heat, overspent, got high on tom yum goong, and suffered some foot massage.

Stayed at Phatumwan Princess hotel, which was linked to a shopping mall known as MBK, which was freaking huge! I went to all the usual places a tourist would go. Visit the four faced Buddha, Suan Lum (pronounced as Suan Loom) night market, and was lucky enough to be there during a weekend so we could catch some shopping at Chattuchak. Crazy shopping I tell you...

Anyways, the weather was freaking hot. I never drank so much water in my life and yet didn't need the toilet. I probably sweat-ed it all out and became dehydrated all over again.

I definitely will need some time to make up for my total damage this holiday. Just hope it'll be as soon as possible. May is just a few weeks away. Holiday #2 is on its way...I don't know if I should be happy or sad right now....*haih*

8 Long Days...

Been away for that long....

The longest for me so far. Can't believe I survived it. *phew* Feels good to be home!

Anyway, I used the hotel computer for free internet while I was in Taipei, and somehow my password for MSN was saved unintentionally into the computer. So, some freak or idiot (or maybe he or she is A freaking idiot) went and used my I.D. to sign in. Then, this smart ass fella asked my friends to 'fuck off' when they messaged me! Irritating shit lor...Some people just don't know how to respect other people's privacy or have the courtesy to at least try and stay out of people's personal stuff...Damn irritating...

And, for those who actually 'thought' or 'believed' that I'd really say that, *shakes head* I'm sorry to say, but you guys are a bunch of idiots as well...I mean, how can you not know me? Will I ever say that? If come that day when I really do say that kinda thing to anyone, this person must have really really really super duper p-i-s-s-e-d-m-e-o-f-f!!

Yeah...

*Takes deep breaths*

I'm going to hang my fresh smelling laundry, then maybe roll around in my bed for a while.

Will write more when I'm less tired....

Fiery Red Eyes

My eyes are like freaking bloodshot now. Damn painful. Slept for only 3 and a half hours and I'm on my way out to Taipei city now! Woooo~

Have fun!

Note to YOU: 6 down and 2 more to go...be patient k? I'm almost there... ^.^

I.M. In Taipei~

Wahahahha~

Taiwanese hotels are so generous with their internet. I'm in the hotel's business centre right now, using free internet, for as long as I want. If I had brought my laptop, I can even access free internet from my room! But...oh well...I didn't...

I'm staying in Tao Yuan now. Which is freaking far from the city area. Nothing much over here. Only food, food and more food. I'll be back here, in Taipei, on Monday morning and staying near the city area. Can't wait.

So crappy la... Wish I had my 'functioning' camera with me. *sigh* I wanna go Disneyland in L.A. but decided not to, cause I don't have a camera with me. Why? Why my camera must spoil now when I need it the most? Why~?!? *sigh*

Note to YOU: Eight days will pass quickly. One down. Seven more days to go. *sigh*

C.I. Mode Again...

The last time I wrote a C.I. (Computer Idiot) post was about being distressed when my computer dieded on me. Today I'm writing a C.I. (Camera Idiot) post regarding my camera.

I don't know since when my camera decided to die on me as well. I can't take any pictures in a normal mode. My pictures keep coming out with lines on it. Damn irritating. Wanted to go fix it at Harbour Front today. But its so far....*sigh* I would be less bothered if I didn't need the camera for next week's trip to Bangkok. If all else fails, I gotta look for reinforcement, pinjam camera from someone...

How?

I want to buy a new camera, but if I don't fix the old one, its gonna be wasted. Furthermore, I bought some stupid gadget to transfer the pictures from my camera to my iPod. Its freaking $70 ok! Not cheap at all. And I've probably used it only like 3 times in the whole year. So now that thing will be wasted too if I switched cameras. *sigh*

I don't want to be a C.I. anymore....Helpppp~

Gone for too long...

I've been pretty occupied. Which is a good thing for me. But this blog has been left unattended. *Bleh*

At least I'm not just sitting around every off day or rotting at home. There are things for me to look forward to now. Someone to come home to...*pause*...well, sort of...and I'm happy about that.

Going for a Bangkok trip sometime end of next week. I have no idea where I'm staying or what is the agenda like for the holiday. Ebel planned everything. Owe her big time. Hate it when I'm in debt to someone. But really hope the trip works out fine. Was suppose to be just us girls, but then TV man (Ebel's boyfriend) is coming along too. So now, me and Man is stuck together. *Cross my fingers and pray for a good trip*

Note to YOU: Current status (1-1). We need a re-match soon... *wink*

Thank YOU for everything...

It will only get better from now on....

Rushed Trip

Had two off days from work and I decided to bring Davina back to KL for a short trip. Very rushed.

This was like a food tour holiday more than anything else.

Going back to Singapore by tonight. Then its back to work again....

Note:

Will disappear for some time again...

It's raining here...

How is it over there?

Something I heard

"Let go of the past...
Engage in the present...and...
Go easy on the future..."

I remember this being a part of some conversation from some movie I watched last time.
I really think, we could all use it...

U think?

*Sigh*

Life just can't be perfect, can it?

Sometimes, when you feel so strong about a certain something, you need to learn to trust that feeling....

It's called gut feeling....

There are no two ways about it....

Yesterday...

I planned for 'dim sum' with my sister and brother. We decided to drag mom along too. She refused, but we bugged and bugged....so finally, she was forced to go. Bad choice. She came home and suffered indigestion for the rest of the day. Felt damn guilty for making her go with us. *Sorry mommy*

I had my hair trimmed. Two months I didn't see Jimmy (the hairdresser), and he still makes fun of my crowning-not-so-glory. *sigh* Asking him to cut my hair is like asking him to go kill himself. But he is a funny guy who fully understands my hair condition, which is why I still put up with him.

I'll be leaving for work tomorrow....

Oh well, what's new?

Quiet Day...

I think I've gotten used to being home alone.

For the past few days, I've been seeing Mandy around more often. I used to hang out alot in the living room, watching vcds and tv the whole day, then she'll usually sit around with me for abit or be in her room, reading, listening to music or taking a nap. Now, the roles are sort of exchanged. I'm hanging out more in my room, and she, in the living room.

Pretty weird transition.

Sometimes I wonder...

There are certain thoughts that we keep to ourselves...
Certain dreams that we don't speak about...
Certain things that we don't mention of...

How much do you really know then?

I.M.H.O.M.E.

Back in Singapore...

Came back to an empty home, as usual. Quite depressing when you've just had quality time with family and friends for the past few days.

Anyway, my CNY was pretty good. Managed a reunion dinner with my family and relatives on the 16th cause I had to work on 17th. Mandy came along and it was all good. No steamboat this year, everyone is sick of the unspoken tradition already. *Hehe*

For a change, we had sweet and sour fish, some great tasting soup, roasted duck, roasted pork, roasted chicken, grilled prawns, fried noodles, and that was about it...I think. Of course cannot miss out the Yee Sang. That is like the main highlight for every reunion dinner.

Work wasn't too bad on the eve. I managed to see how the Shanghainese people celebrate their CNY. Lots of fireworks and fire crackers. I could see almost four or five different fireworks set off, just outside my room window at the hotel. So pretty....

Came back from work on the first day of CNY. My dad wanted to leave for Johor immediately, so I had to rush. But in the end stayed a night at my relative's in Johor. Left the next day for home. Long long journey....traffic was pretty heavy when we neared Seremban.

But I got home, eventually....

Holiday-ing is over. Work starts. Tomorrow. Sien~

Happy CNY~

*Just found out that both Ai Yong and Dian gave birth to baby girls few weeks back! So happy~ *

Been back in KL since Monday. Busy with visiting and catching up with friends. Red packet economy this year isn't very good. But I don't think it matters that much anymore.

I need to catch up on sleep....

Blog more when I'm back to my old routines....

Goodnight...

I've got something to say....

But I just can't make out the words now....

Happy Valentine's

Happy Valentine's Day to everyone!

As usual, its not a celebration for me. I hate crowds. Valentine's day attracts crowds. I hate Valentine's day crowds. But I still go out with friends just for the sake of not wanting to stay home. Stupid...I know...

I have been away for so long...

Yesterday I came home to my place and found some bugger tiny insects crawling all over my room. I am so confirmed gonna move out when the contract ends. But anyway, I had a good sleep. Have been so deprived of it for the whole week when I was away.

Okay. Update again when I'm more awake. I want to go sleep for some more. Zzzzz...

Dumb, Dumber, Dumbest.

Tell me why am I always doing stupid things? Like forever...

2 years living out alone and I'm still a scatter brain.

First year I locked myself out of my own room. Then I dropped my one week old handphone in the cab. Second year I left my aircon running and went away to work for like 4 days? Then, just last month, I scared myself thinking I left my laptop charging away when I left for work for like another five days.

The stupidest thing is that I left my house keys in the cab when I was coming home yesterday. I mean...I have actually lost a handphone in the cab before, remember? How come never learn from mistakes? Damn dodo. Lucky I managed to track the cabbie and he came back to return my keys. As a good gesture, I wanted to tip him $5. But then I only had $10. So I gave him that. Tip people also cannot be smarter.

*sigh*

Seriously don't know where I left my brains....

What's Been Happening...

I came back from work yesterday about 9 plus in the morning. Then Mandy woke up and we started our spring cleaning. A whole lot. But surprisingly, it wasn't that bad. To think I actually considered giving up and hiring the Ah Mas' on wheels before I even started. Yah...they actually have some cleaning service here called Ah Mas' on wheels. Very expensive charges too...

Anyway, we're done with the cleaning and we spoke about our contract renewal for this place. I think it's about time we start to consider about moving out, later in the year (Mandy had a pair of birkies moulding, so she finally understands how irritated I am with that matter). I don't want another last minute drama happening like last year. Bad for health.

*Thinks deeply*

So many things are linked to one single decision. What if I get my PR? Do I start looking for a new job? If I get a new job, do I still stay around this area? How long do I want to be living in this country? What if I don't get my PR? *pause* Damn...

Decisions....decisions....decisions....

Off to work~

Super short sleep. 2AM to 3.30AM. But I woke up, wide awake, and I'm super early. Was suppose to wake up at 4.15AM for work. But yeah...I'm early. I even have time to blog now before I leave.

Don't know what to talk about now. Too early in the morning, brain engine not exactly started yet. Just can't wait to go and come back. Mandy wants to spring clean the house on Monday. Hopefully the sun will be out then can wash all curtains and stuff. Not exactly looking forward to cleaning though. I can imagine all the lizard shit and unfound mould waiting for me... *Eeeww*

Anyway, I should get going. Don't miss me yah~ ^.^

Its been raining quite abit.

But everytime I look out, I just can't seem to find the rainbow after the rain....

I think I've been played out...

again...

Another day...

past just like that.

Pretty slow moving actually. Thought I would've gone out with Mandy, but she seemed a little under the weather today. So I ended up trying to clean my room.

I didn't know I had so much to throw out. And I was just thinking, that it'd be great if we could do the same with our lives isn't it? Organize our thoughts in different files and folders, throw out old information and make space for new ones, dispose unwanted things in your life and just keep those of your favourite ones...

Oh well...

I guess that's just what makes us human...

I.M.B.A.C.K.

Have been away for so long. Away from Singapore, then to Malaysia, then to Singapore, then away again, then back, then away, then back, then...then....you go figure...

I'm still living in the same nutshell (yah, the moulding one). Adelaide is married, Maureen just got married, Dian is expected to give birth two days before Valentine's, Ai Yong is expecting hers around end February, and yeah...I'm still here...

I so need to get a new table! I'm still using the foldable table which is less than a meter big. Macam those kiddy tables I use to have, only taller. I'm just waiting for my parents to come during CNY, then my dad can help me fix whatever crap I choose. Yay~

I've got to fill that damn PR form. Photocopy all the necessary. And get my company's letter. I'm sitting on this for too long already. Somebody whack me please....

Reminder to self: Please buy a new clock. You are so lost without it. Handphone is always out of reach, butt always stuck to chair. You need a new clock. You are so lost without it. Your laptop timer is so stuck in time. Even Chee Eng can't do anything about that. He says its super weird. You need a new clock. You are so lost without it.

Okay. I need to go stretch...in bed. My eyes are killing me. I need to sleep....

Great Expectations...

I have learnt from the past...not to have great expectations...

In life, in love and in family....

The lessons you have learnt before, comes back to haunt you, ever so often...

Your past makes your present...

But let's not dwell on it...

Take my hand, and I'll walk with you...

No more great expectations...

Just you, me and the future...waiting to unfold...

No more...

Great expectations...

I Pray for myself...

Tonight...some problematic fella is gonna check on my work. I need to pray that he leaves me alone. Or least gives me some space for work. I met him once last year, nasty experience. He raised a hand over me, you know, that kinda motion when you are gonna slap someone. Basket fella. My dad also never did that to me before. I could've reported his threatening moves. Now I know better what to do....just pray for me if you have time...

Anyway...baby Charrise finally spoke to me today! So sweet can die. She says things like "Doreen jie jie, come back" and "I miss you so much". Wah~ My heart melted...I miss her so much too. Can't wait to see her...

Its a Sunday

Right. No need for the ambulance. I think I would've died by the time someone read that post and called for help anyway.

I fell asleep last night. Then woke up to switch off the lights and went back to sleep again. Good sleep. But I'm still aching all over. The only good thing is that my heart beat has returned to normal rhythm. It was really scary last night. It felt as if my heart was over working itself and refused to slow down regardless what I did or didn't do.

Anyway, YeeMai is leaving soon. Sorry YeeMai, I never come and send you off. I'll see you back in KL okay? Hope you had a great time here. I really did. And it was nice to meet your friend Yen Hoe.

The weather outside looks extremely good. My bed looks extremely inviting. I think I'm gonna laze around for a little bit....

Stoning...

I wanted to write something last night. About the conversation content I had with my sis yesterday. But in the end....I think I'll just let it be...

Anyway, I'm pretty tired from work today. Physically exhausted. My heart is beating weirdly, macam gonna get heart attack soon. Maybe the tiredness is setting my body haywire. My head feels peculiarly heavy today. Probably as heavy as a big sponge soaked with water.

This is getting sleepy....let me talk about happier stuff...

like Yeemai's trip to Singapore.

She is the first friend, when asked her reason of visit to this country, states that its no other than visiting me! *So touched*

Anyway, besides eating, and staying at my place for a night, and eating, and going shopping, and eating, and taking pictures, and eating....we didn't do anything much. But I enjoyed having Yeemai around! That sums up all the time I spent with her. Hahahah~ ^.^

I seriously think I need to go lie down for a while. My heart is beating faster and my vision is getting blurry. Plus the sponge feels like its thoroughly over-soaked. If I don't post anything tomorrow, please call the ambulance for me. *no kidding* I love my family and friends....

Living 2 0 0 7

The few days in a new year.....still feels the same like 2006 to me.

Maybe I still have not exactly tune my mental into thinking its a new year. It feels a little weird this new year cause I never aim to achieve any goals or resolutions like the previous years. Not that I don't have any. More like I almost always fail to achieve them by the end of the year. So, I might as well forget about it.

Oh well...

Anyway, Yeemai is coming on Thursday! Yay~

I have so many friends visiting Singapore this year. Its great!

See you Thursday Yeemai!! ^.^\/