Holiday Jitters

The past week has been hectic. Trying to swap for off days all the time. Its not funny. My eyes are going crazy just looking at the computer screen. My nerves are going bonkers waiting for people's text reply. But its all been working out well...at this point at least...I hope...

Tomorrow's the big day. Nic and I are finally going to Kea Island, Greece, for our long planned holiday. We're getting pretty nervous cause its our first trip going so far overseas together. We've only been Bali once and Phuket with his friends but apart from that, we've never gone so far - Europe to say the least. Feels like an adventure altogether.

I can't even say I'm half packed. I need my bag for work tonight and can only do the rest of packing tomorrow. So hopefully I don't freak out. I've been trained for this. Packing and unpacking is like one of the things I've learnt in 5 and half years. I should be able to do it even with some pressure right? I'm sure even with blindfolds I can. *looks uncertain*

Tomorrow onwards will be crazy schedule for me. I need to pray that I don't fall sick in the midst of that holiday, attending wedding, back to work, holiday, chinese new year, back to work again thing.

I guess I should start resting this minute and every second I can prior to tomorrow!!! Arrgghhh~ Feeling all loony again!!!

*stress stress stress*

Crossroads

In the recent weeks, I've spoke to at least more than 10 people about changing jobs. Its always different how upbringing, character and commitments shine through each individual when they share their thoughts with you. You can tell right away how these individuals prioritize their lives. They shared with me their experiences, same and different worries for the future.

But even with the many conversations I had, I have not managed to come to any decisions. In fact, I'm only getting more and more confused not knowing which path I should embark on. I do not know if I have that many worries or if I am simply not brave enough to take that leap or am I just making excuses for myself so that I don't have to leave my comfort zone.

The truth is, this is not the first. I've had this conversation with myself more than once. I've got full support from my loved ones, but I don't want to just quit and end up in another shit hole. How would I know if I'm gonna be used to normal working hours? Will I be able to travel back to KL as often? Can I adapt to the different working environment? Will I like what I do?

What should I do now?

Right now, I should go and catch some winks. Will I know what to do after I wake up? Hopefully...