Friday, November 13, 2009

On the things I used to love...



Just about a week ago, I went with Nic to watch Michael Jackson's 'This Is It'. It was quite awesome, giving he was already in his fifties, still rocking, moon walking, billy jean-ing, and singing his heart out. It must have been really sad for the whole team, losing him and not being able to perform after all the effort they put into practice. I almost teared when the credits started rolling...


Watching the making of his concert reminded me of how I used to be crazy over Faye Wong (MJ is Nic's idol and Faye Wong's mine). I can't remember how I started to be so fanatic over a singer, but I remember borrowing one of her casette tapes from my cousin and the rest was history. I started cutting her pictures out from magazines and papers, I watched and recorded her every special appearance on television. The hype went on for quite a while.

I attended her concert twice in Malaysia. I still have the tickets, laminated and kept like a secret treasure in one of my locked drawers (although its not really locked). It was quite an experience growing up idolising her. Not everyone around me is a fan of Faye you know, so sometimes when bad or negative things are said about her, I become very defensive.

With the different friends I had, I obviously supported other singers and attended other concerts too. But its interesting how I grew out of these things. I just slowly drifted away from being such a fan. I mean, I used to fall asleep listening to her songs. I use to treat her posters like it was framed with gold.

Now that I look back and think about it, I would find some of the things I did silly and amusing. But I don't think I'd ever regret, cause it was all in good fun. I still like Faye Wong very much. I applaud her attitude and talent. She came out of the Shirley Wong 'shell' and made sure she had a say in making her own music. She made a name for herself by insisting on her ways. She's almost like my version of a female chinese MJ. You have to see her perform live, she sings so effortlessly its just unbelievable.

I would so love to attend another one of her concerts. In time to come...

Thursday, November 05, 2009

Gloominess.Being Fickle.

Its been pouring the whole day. Off and on, off and on again.

So much has been on my mind lately. Yet, when I sit in front of my laptop, the computer screen stares back at me, blankly. My mind conversations just don't seem to translate into blog time, if that makes any sense at all.

Lately, my mind has been really fickle. I think part of me has always been like that. But it seems to be getting more and more severe recently. Have I always been this difficult? I can spend 10 minutes just picking two apples in a supermarket when 10 people have probably walked past me with 5 apples each in their baskets. I always end up ordering last at a restaurant cause I just can't seem to choose and decide on what I want for lunch or dinner, and most times even after I've placed my order, I'd still look at the menu and wonder if I picked the right thing to eat.

Ok. I can hear Nic start to panic now. *smiles* I'm sure I picked the right guy. We're talking about a different topic here ok?

Am I just being lazy and dependent on others to decide for me? Well of course there are days when I'm just too dominant for my own good I want to decide everything for myself. But its been a long time since I saw those days. What has happened?

I hope its just a passing phase. Maybe I just need to de-clutter my room and brain for more simple storage space and proper organization in life.