Wednesday, May 31, 2006

How's Me?

I've leisurely spent my days at home in KL so far. Feels good. But the weekend is nearing. Means I gotta go back to work soon. Which sucks...

Anyway, I shall not mention work, since I'm suppose to be on a break right now. Let me give an update since I haven't been online much recently.

Life hasn't exactly been boring or exciting for me. I'm healthy, I'm sane, I'm eating well, I'm good. Trying to make a difference in my own life. But don't know how. I sometimes feel like a headless chicken walking aimlessly with no directions. Other times I feel like I have made up my mind on certain matters only to worry about the decision 5 minutes later.

I know. I am lost.

But right now, I think its perfectly fine. Its perfectly common. Tell me who doesn't feel lost once in a while? Just as long as I am not avoiding issues or responsibilities. I think I am alright.

I should be.... . . . . . . a l r i g h t .

Tuesday, May 30, 2006

Holi! Holi! Holi!

My long awaited break has come! I am so happy. This is really sit back and relax. I have so many things to do. Sit home and rot with my family, meet up with my friends and go for a trip to Pulau Perhentian. Woohoo~

Can't wait...

Saturday, May 20, 2006

Gastric Pangs?

I can't possibly be feeling gastric pain right now. I had a brilliant sushi lunch and some self-made (more like instant-made) macaroni and cheese for dinner. But it's true. My stomach is aching and I'm almost in a curled up position sitting here trying to type.

Hate the feeling. It can be so painful, sometimes you just wanna die... -.-

Anyway, I won't be around to update until another week or probably two weeks. This piece of info is for those who really think I'd die from the stomach pains. Ha Ha...

I'm gonna go curl up in the bed now. Goodnite...

Wednesday, May 17, 2006

1 Litre of Tears...

Karen introduced to me a 11 episode Japanese drama entitled "1 Litre of Tears". I left the CD aside for quite some time, until recently. I watched it because I had trouble sleeping.

This show and its title, no kidding...

I believe at the end of the 11th episode, I had already cried one litre of tears. *Rubs swollen eyes*

It is based on a true story. About a 15 year old girl who was diagnosed with a disease known as spino-something-cullar-something-something. Its a disease that will eventually unable a person to walk, talk or even eat like a normal human being. There is no cure to it.

The series followed on how she found out about the disease, how she tried to make the best out of her life after that, how she had to give up on all the things a teenager could do because she was not up to it and how she died. Damn sad.

Makes me wonder sometimes, why I am always complaining about my own life. I am healthy and I should be thankful for that. There is nothing more important than health. Sigh... *Feels guilty about being greedy*

Gambate-neh!

Sunday, May 14, 2006

I Can't Sleep!!

I was in bed at 1am. Like an hour ago. Rolled to the right, rolled to the left, stopped rolling, then rolled again. I can't sleep. So I switched the lights on to write something, then proceeded to roll in bed again. I freaking cannot sleep!

So, now I'm here. Online and not sleeping. I know Erin will whack me for not trying to sleep, but I tried, I really did.

Who needs coffee to keep awake? I don't even drink coffee to begin with...

Saturday, May 06, 2006

My Bus Experience...

I took a bus back from the airport last night. Something I only do once in a while, and definately not during the night. Cause after I alight at the bus stop, I still need to walk uphill about 5 minutes to reach home. During the night, its a little scary for me.

Anyway, something went wrong with the bus service last night and resulted in a long queue of people. When the bus finally reached, everyone boarded and I knew I was going to end up standing near the driver's seat. With a heavy bag in toll, I was already eyeing on a spot where I could put my baggage and stand to support it without being in the way of others.

But no.

These four teenage boys had to go put their shopping there and two of them actually had the cheek to sit there. They were blocking the way of others with their knees sticking out. Okay fine. They got there first. So, I'll stop bitching about them.

As I mentioned earlier, the bus service was screwed for that night, so every bus stop had at least a few people waiting to board the bus. If those who were standing right behind of the bus made some space, we could jolly well accomodate more people. But nobody was moving. I half expected the driver to stand up and yell on top of his voice, "Masuk belakang, masuk belakang, MASUK BELAKANG!!!" But this would only happen in KL. We just had to move ourselves when you're in Singapore.

I overheard one guy complaining about how packed the bus was. I thought to myself, "This is nothing man. You've still got at least 3-5cm before you rub shoulder or asses with a stranger. Wait till you take a bus in KL. That is super sardine pack. That is what you call madness!"

I ain't complaining. But if given a choice, I'd still prefer a cab or car anytime. Cause I wasted a freaking hour for that bus ride.

Wednesday, May 03, 2006

5 years...

Today, I had a chat with one of my friends through MSN, just like any other day. Until he told me that he was having doubts about his relationship with his girlfriend of 5 years. 5 years....

I remember a few months back, he was telling me how he missed his girlfriend when she's not around, how badly he wants her to move in with him, how he wanted to prepare for their future together. But now, he tells me he's having doubts.

First reaction, I asked him why. He says he doesn't want to be stuck to one girl when there might be others. He says after 5 years of being together and living together, there is nothing much you can do anymore. Is that true?

I'm pretty sure that girl does not know for nuts that he is having these thoughts. If I'm in her shoes, I'd be crushed to know my boyfriend thinks that way of me. I'd be lost for words that he is dumping me because he wants to experience some other relationship. All these, just because he thinks he might be losing out on better options.

I know there is a possibility of your love and affections fading. But crap. Do you know what the hell are you talking about here? 5 years of being together is going to go down the drain just because you think there might be some other girls out there better than her. Its like a huge risk to take. What if you couldn't find someone a better match for you? Are you counting on your ex to take you back? I don't think in relationships, there are such things as contingency plans.

But heck. You live your own life. I just listen and watch. All I can say is, please think before you act. All the best....*shakes your hand and gives you a pat on the back*