Jet-Lagging...

Two days is not sufficient for a normal being to recover from jet lag.

I'm just back from Frankfurt and New York. My body has been working like totally opposite since Friday. I started to feel hungry during the late night which is the approximate timing I have my breakfast overseas. Sucks to the max....

I'm so tired on Friday, I slept almost instantly. But I had probably too long a rest during the day time, and Saturday saw me staring into the dark until almost 4am in the morning. Now I've gotta just gather all my tiredness and put myself to bed cause I'm expected to wake up at 3.40am for work. You would think its gonna be alright, since I get to sleep later in the day when I supposedly come back from work. But no. I think that would only further screw up my sleeping pattern cause I'm due for morning shift again on Tuesday.

Sigh~ Life is tough...*shakes head*

Attachment

It seems to be getting more and more difficult to be away these days.

I recently overheard a conversation of my colleague (I wasn't eavesdropping, she was speaking really loud). Her boyfriend is based overseas and she stays in Singapore. The nature of our job enables her to visit her boyfriend regularly if not often. They've maintained a relationship as such for about 8 years. She used to be really sad when leaving him everytime. But these days, she says she's alright with it. It almost feels like nothing. Just another routine.

I beg to differ.

I've grown so attached to Nic, especially recently. It feels so sad when I leave for another country. The only motivation I have is telling myself when I'll be back and when I get to see him next. I guess most people will either say I'm too sticky as a girlfriend or tell me this is just a honeymoon period in the relationship. But I know for sure it isn't.

This attachment is a form of growth in our relationship. I don't know how you can measure growth, but it feels just about right to describe it in these words. Its a wonderful feeling though. Nobody makes me happy the way he does...*smiles*

I'll be back in a week...be good...

Tiredness...

I've been tired...

Family issues have been numbing me. Its like a never ending ferris wheel. Up and down, round and round. Sigh...

But I think living out in Singapore away from my family draws my attention away sometimes. Cause visually I don't see it. So I'm kinda like in hiding. It makes me feel guilty sometimes. Like I'm being happy here cause I've got Nic to accompany me. But I know everyone in my family is tired with their own problems, tired with trying to understand each other, tired trying to be patient.

Being tired can be lethal isn't it? It'll make you lose concentration, test your patience, play with your emotions, and just basically drain your every ounce of energy.

Tell me...have you been tired lately?