I.M.S.I.C.K.

It all started with the many fried tempuras I never had. I should've known better than to have 3 types of tempura all in a day. Then I had to go and indulge in a chocolate fondue feast. Only two of us, but the chocolate fondue was practically wiped clean.

Came home feeling major pain in my throat. The next day the pain got better but I started a sneezing frenzy. Went to work as per-normal only to make it worse. Had fever on and off. Went to see a doctor after work. The weirdest doctor I've ever met. This was part of the conversation we had...

Doctor: So, what is wrong with you?

HM: I had sore throat, then flu, fever and now I'm coughing.

Doctor: When was the last time you had your menses?

HM: o_O *pause a while*
Ermm...I can't remember *thinks what does that have to do with my
flu and cough?*

Doctor: Roughly tell me a date.

HM: Erm...maybe mid or end of last month?

Doctor: Give me a date *sounded very persistent*

HM: *tries to count backwards....* Maybe somewhere during 18th to 20 someting?

Doctor: Give me a date.

HM: -.-"' 20th *don't care anymore...just hentam*

That conversation itself bantered on for at least 5 minutes. And I really have no freaking idea what is the connection between my monthly cycle to my illness. Anyway, that was just the beginning. Later on....

HM: I had ear ache as well.

Doctor: Ok. *reached out for a torch light*
You look at the other side, on the wall maybe and see if the light shines through.

HM: What? o_O

Doctor: *seems amused and laughs at his own joke*

HM: *OMG, that was like...damn lame...*

This doctor really is a little psycho. He is quite old, definately more than 50 years of age. When I told him I was having fever, the least he could do was take a temperature for me. Instead, he used his hand to feel my forehead and neck to see if I was burning up. Weird la...

I'm no where near to feeling better yet. Still croaking away when I try to talk and my sore throat seems to be coming back. Sienz...

How now?

Was on the phone with my mom just now. Talked about whether or not I should quit my job, whether or not I should leave here and go back to KL. This conversation has repeated so many times, I've already lost count of it...

Its a difficult decision for me to make. My parents don't want to put any financial burden on me, so they advice me to go on with life as how I planned it. But how can I? Like let my parents support both my siblings' education on their own? Cause I definately won't be able to contribute much or at all if I pack my bags now and go home. Drag and buy time...that's all I can do for now while I think about it.

Then I gave a long overdued call to my aunt's. Wanted to talk to my grandma, but she was already asleep. Ever since my (maternal) grandpa passed away, the nagging my mom always gave me about visiting and calling my (paternal) grandma has been digging deep into my heart. I know I'm a terrible grand daughter.

My grandma has been suffering from several illness, namely parkinson's disease, osteoporosis, thyriod and other minor elderly ailments. She thinks negatively about her illness. Always mentions that she is a burden to others, just sitting around waiting for death. Tell me, how to console her? Everytime I visit her, I wish there was something I could do to lessen her grief.

*Aih* So heart wrenching when I think of all these things...I can only feel pain...

Some Motto...

Was chatting with a guy friend on MSN messenger, just a while ago. Have not seen him for over a year. He asked me the normal, how is life, how is work, and then how is love...

When I told him I am still unattached, he actually typed out the words R-E-M-A-R-K-A-B-L-E.

Great. Another person who thinks I am some problem persona that is why I am still single. Just what I needed *Rolls eyes*

He went on to question me if I was confused with my sexuality or gender. He mentioned maybe I was looking for too much in a person....yadda yadda yadda. He even went to the extent of telling me that I am exactly like one of his girl friend and how she is doomed, cause she always has no feelings for the guys who are after her.

So, all these I know...what about a solution?

Then, he shares with me, a brilliant motto that he lives by...

"Dont find someone you can live with, find someone you cant live without"

Wahh....so deep...but true...

But I am not suppose to find...remember? Cause if I force these things, it will not come...so how?

*Panic*

Really thought I lost my thumbdrive for good. Couldn't find it when I was leaving for KL. Then yesterday night when I came back, started searching again. My room is really freaking messy. I used to be more organized. If not organized, at least a motivated organizer. The mess in my room contributed to a hard time looking for my thumbdrive. No sign of it...

This morning I tried again. Looked in at all the possible places I might've left it. I double checked all my bag compartments and.... guess what? I finally found it in one of my pouch, the one which carries all my hp charger and usb cables. I brought that pouch all the way from Singapore to KL to Singapore again thinking that I've lost my thumbdrive. Brilliant isn't it?

I've totally lost it....My memory that is....

Back..

in KL this time. Lazy me actually took a bus back. Have been tied with stuff so I haven't been updating as often as I'd like to. But this was meant as a time filler for me anyway. My only ardent reader is probably myself...and maybe my sis...

Anyway, no mood to write today...

We'll see how tomorrow goes....