My sad holiday...

What a crappy planned out holiday! You really never know when other things may just affect your normal life all of a sudden.

I have about a week's worth of days off and annual leave. Have been planning to go for a trip with Serena for ages (at least more than 2 years). We wanted to go Taiwan initially with Jern Hoh, but he couldn't make it, so we invited Pui Mun, and all was set. Then just when we were looking at the schedules and booking dates, Pui Mun backed out, couldn't go. So Serena and I decided to make it simple and go for a Hong Kong trip instead.

Some swine flu outbreak had to happen and one whole hotel of people got quarantined in Hong Kong, which freaked us out and we decided to cancel. So the last minute plan was for Serena to come over to Singapore and we just hang out and go shopping.

Just as I arrived in Singapore from London, day before our short holiday starts, I receive several sms regarding a confirmed case of swine flu in Singapore. The first. It had to be the same flight that my housemate came back from! Shites! I knew my holiday plans were all going down the drain...

So, just in case precaution (since my housemate was not asked to be quarantined), I had to change plans and go back to KL instead. We couldn't do any local holidays last minute. Its really too last minute, and we are two helpless girls who just wanna have fun...

We met with Jern Hoh for lunch, had a spa moment together and a long dinner together. I guess the important thing is to spend time together as friends, no matter where we are. But I just can't help feeling disappointed with the overseas part. Especially now, since I'm donating blood to the mozzies in my living room. I think I've fed them about 5 times at least in the last half hour.

Oh well...life's like that...

I've been thinking...

I'm suppose to be napping so I won't be zombie like at work tonight. But a phone call woke me up and now I can't fall back into sleep. My brains have been non-stop thinking and thinking even when I was just lazing in bed earlier on.

Sometimes I hate being the eldest in my family. The responsibility lies on you whether you like it or not. I'm tired. But I love my family. I want everyone to come together, good times or bad. I want everyone to have an open communication, so we won't have to go through big drama arguments everyday. I want so badly so many things to be good...God must think I'm selfish.

In another 2 months and I'll pass the 5 year mark of working in Singapore. What happened to 'I will quit after the 2 years bond'? What happened to 'I'm looking for a new job' (one and half years ago) ? What happened to being decisive and wanting to do new things for that matter? I'm afraid I'm sinking into the comfort zone. I'm really afraid. No kidding. I need to pull myself out of it...

I don't think I finished anything I started since the beginning of the year. What has happened to me?

I want a holiday badly. Can the holiday please come and look for me?

Totally Unexpected...

I just got back from trip this morning. Was trying so hard to get Nic on the phone, but after several missed calls, I fell asleep in the attempt. I was woken up by a stranger on the phone telling me there was a delivery waiting outside my place, for me. I went to open the door, looking all groggy and sleepy....

Then I saw this...

I can't believe Nic bought me flowers! Out of the blue too~

I absolutely love the bouquet. But I love him more....

Thank you sayang for the lovely surprise~ *muacks*

Gym Moments

I was never a fan of exercise. I used to tell people I live by the motto, "Eat first, think later". But after working, especially having to travel as often as I do, I realise that its important to take care. Recently, I've heard countless people ailing from cancer and numerous colleagues having difficulty to conceive. I wouldn't want to suffer from any unnecessary pain due to an unhealthy lifestyle.

I started taking on light exercise. I've some friends who started taking yoga classes and signing up for gym packages. So I started jogging around where I live, and taking on pilates class. Then I realise that I could make use of free access to gym whenever I'm overseas.

I don't really like the idea of those heavy machinery and having to exercise in a public area with a crowd. I feel intimidated. The thought of having to try and operate a machine, foreign to me, makes me shy and embarass. What if I pushed the wrong button? What if I put my feet on the part where my hands should be? What if I used this machine and developed muscles on my arm instead of toning them? Worries...

I still imagine those things could happen to me. Which is why I only use the threadmill and one other exercise machine. Do not be too ambitious. Simple does it. But I remember that one time when I was in Frankfurt and the freaking threadmill had German language all over it. Instead of increasing the speed on it, I was tipping the threadmill at a 45 degree angle. I tried to remain calm while trying to figure out how to stop embarassing myself any further. Quite a challenge.

I feel lazy at the thought of having to change, sweating it out, coming back to cool off and having to shower, dry my hair and all that shit. Thinking of the process puts me off the mood to exercise. But I put my excuses to the side and went to the gym back to back. Yesterday and today. I feel good. It was worth while.

I hope I won't let the bad side take over me anymore...