Fast forward July

Life seems to be in a fast forward mode right now.

I blogged last month, about wanting to resign and packing up to move back to KL. Here I am, already free as a bird, packing to move back to KL. I actually thought I would write about how anxious or excited I felt about quitting or how much I'm gonna miss my job, and everything here in Singapore. But each time, the word and the feelings jumble into one big lump of nothing, and I end up just doing something else to not think about it.

Five days has passed since my last work day. I have calmly went to return my staff pass and all my other company's belongings the following day. I felt a little unsure, a little light headed, a little nervous, a little relief, a little of everything mixed up. It was kinda overwhelming. I came home, didn't feel like talking or doing anything at all. Went out to meet up with friends, and that is exactly what I have been doing for the past few days.

So it hasn't exactly settled in. The feeling that I am no longer employed.

Maybe it might take a few weeks...a month...or even a few months...

Right now, I just wanna enjoy the time I have...

Note: By the way, to those who has been following me on blogspot, thanx for the support. I seem to be having problems with posting a reply in the comments section. Appreciate all the encouragement out there.

The BIG decision

Since the proposal in February, there has been lots of fast moving moments, dodging the ball moments, new ideas in consideration moments, we'll handle that tomorrow moments, and now...one big leap moment.

I have been endlessly talking about leaving my job since the day that I started here in Singapore. And finally now I will be resigning to start again, back in Malaysia (but I haven't actually tender my resignation yet). Its almost unbelievable and came a little faster than I expected. But now that its finally sinking in, I can't wait for this new adventure to start.

Needless to say, I totally need a break now to start planning wedding stuff. Something that Nic and I have conveniently avoided cause we are working in Singapore. Its super tough to organize things from another country. I seriously don't know how Chee Eng and Mei See did it. Or maybe I wasn't putting enough effort and dedication in....yet...

The important thing for me now is to super organize my stuff over here so I can go back without worrying about things over here. I keep staring at my room and don't even know where I should start packing. *sigh*

I'm gonna miss a lot of things here...and people...and my personal space...

I sometimes wonder...

what goes on in each person's mind?

how can people be so different and still be friends?

why some people are only concern about their own thoughts and can care less about yours?

why do we expect certain things out of certain people?

why do I always have to care about details?

when can this uncomfortable feeling go away?

why do I even bother?

Arrghhh!! I'm being spammed!

Someone is seriously spamming my blog. I've got a comment on every single entry and its not even a comment. Its some freakishly long advertisement on bag selling!!! I don't do free advertisement! Plus, I can't seem to leave comments on my own blog entry anymore! How how how? Help~ Someone please tell me what I can do...

I'm melting~

Its so freaking hot today! I'm melting in my skin. I'm wearing the skimpiest of all clothing I have cause nobody's home. But it really ain't helping! My shorts are like sticking to my skin and my top is just so uncomfortable. I can't even lean into the sofa cause its so hot!

I shall think about something else to distract myself. Like a super cold drink and super cold salad, ice cream and penguins and igloo and the north pole...Who am I kidding! That is so not gonna work either.

I've even got my arms sticking out at my sides just so I get better ventilation at *ahem* certain areas. I should just switch on the air conditioning and chill down. But I'm thinking that is so bad for the environment..(why do I even think of things like that) Sigh~

I'll step into the shower to 'cool' myself now...

Salad Topple :(

Can't believe I spent so much effort cutting up vegetables and cooking chicken preparing for my dinner and its all gone to waste. I was so craving for salad today and decided to make some for dinner. Woke up and was getting myself a drink. Carelessly took the tupperware out of the fridge and before I even manage to place it on the counter top, the whole thing crashed to the floor! OMG~

You can't believe the frustration going on in my mind. Waste of time, waste of money and no dinner.

Sadedooss~

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Wanted to blog so much.
But all I could think of is...

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Can't believe I came back from work yesterday and decided to maintain going London instead of taking a well deserved off day. Sigh~

Hopefully my plans of having a picnic with the Changs will succeed this time around. Pray for a nice sunny day!