Reply: To my friend.

Never.

Never in my life has anyone asked me to "Buck the fuck up already".

That was a whole mouthful when I read it. But I assure you that I fully understand its meaning.

I guess recently I've been seeing a whole lot of successful young people, moving fast and moving forward. And everytime I take a step forward, I panic, cause I'm not as fast and not as good in directions myself. Everyone knows when they want to turn at junctions or go right across. I only know how to stop and let everyone else whizz past me.

Maybe I haven't been thinking well. Haven't been clear about my directions and ambitions. Which makes my brains rust and memory failure takes over. I truly don't want that to ever happen. But it is happening.

Not many people I console in is reaching out to pull my hands. Maybe its cause I didn't ask? But I thank God, that I've still got friends like you. People who shake me up. People who make me realise I want to get on with life.

I can't promise that I've seen the rainbow on the other end. I can't promise I know whether I want to turn right or left, or make a crossing. I can only say that I don't want to "hammer nails into a premature coffin".

Cause I never again want to hear you say, "Buck the fuck up already".